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Turn to Ghost

by Stephen Alexander

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1.
Won’t you tell me another story? Cause I can’t seem to get to sleep You know I wanted to sign my cast When we were younger but I was too afraid to ask Yea I said I need your love everyday In my break arms I seem to hold myself The fractured bone and the pain My wrist collapsed under my bodies weight And my soul detached to space And I need your love everyday, everyday I cant today, I’m too sad to trip Just tryna last a bit longer than I already did I spend my time putting love to the test But it’s the only thing, to make it out the other end And i need your love everyday, everyday, everyday
2.
The years of my life as they pass Have been so open and so dense With the time between moments And the language past words I’m so glad to hear your voice I’m so glad youre in this world, of all the endless worlds I think of laying in your arms And the forever of a purgatorys calmness But then i realize it’s heaven in radiator heat So simple in your movements like cedar growth in low light Losing track of time but im so fine with who i spend it I’m glad to give in to temptations with you So let’s go slow, let’s take it slow Jesus spoke from the mountain to the living and the ghost Had he found himself filled with doubt Then what could I be so sure about? Nothing. I wont think about it I’m just so glad it happened I’m glad to give in to temptations with you Give in to temptations with you In honesty I’d be fine without you And i hope you’re happy to hear that, Cause I’d be with you. Yea i’d be with you If you’d be with me
3.
Someone take me home I need to be alone Someone take me home I’ve had one too many now I’m alone on this road at midnight, in moonlight. The breeze leads me, asphalt to the reeds. I can feel the sand on my feet, this is just what i need I dont what day it is, i don't know where i am All i know is I'm alone on the beach So i crawl into the waves, crawl into the waves In hope that theres something to find Like the ghosts of my life i float towards the light Crawl into the waves and they take me down I release the sea inside and emerge from the tide Crawl into the waves (repeat)
4.
Cold Bodies 03:12
The room was less full without her Being awake in the way she used to be Before the sickness Before she stopped eating anything We stayed in the living room that night “Wait, why wont you wait? Why wont you hold on?” “Cold Bodies” “Cold Bodies” “Say It Again” Say it again, say it again Make me happy, cold body Know you can’t, Come back again But we’re holding on to faith But you cant No you can’t, come back again
5.
What does it mean to go away? Is there any other place? Is there a pulse to this world? And does it guide us through? Do you follow the voice? That’s looking for something too? When there’s nothing to find? There’s never been something to find But we define actions And we use words We hold court in ourselves And we follow the pulse of this world My whole life I’ve tried to find it not knowing what it is. Have you tried to find it not knowing what it is? I’m just trying to learn how to float x 4
6.
I fell in love in the worst way And i fell for all your old tricks And i knew you Or at least i thought, and still think I fell into the water And i felt something for the first time I’m caught in the pages The retelling of my life as it happens I fell in love in the worst And i fell for all your old tricks And I knew you Or so I thought Nothing Again. See Nothing Again. See Nothing Again. I See Nothing. I See Nothing, Again.
7.
Longing 03:55
1000 hours, don't think i’d let you go The voice got louder, but i will let you know I was a coward cause death is cold I lost all power not tryna be alone You put you’re hand next to me But i hold my own instead Grasping at arms, staring at my phone I’m scared I’m almost done Cause then I’ll be gone I’m happy with any person I get to be I’m happy with any person I get to be Summer falls, but then i’ts winter spring Feel like an evergreen floating in the dead sea And i walk around all these city streets In the cold, and in the dead heat And I’m happy with any person that I get to be And I’m happy with any person that I get to be And I’m happy with any person that I get to be And I’m happy with any person that I get to be
8.
Direct 03:18
Maybe this is just me trying to show where I go when I turn to ghost In the middle of the room i stand when the mood hits Then i cruise around and start losing myself Driving down the coast watch myself walk out from the ocean From when i went down, i cant do this again Remember when we were quiet cause she stopped eating Pretending it’s fine, that we still had time Is there a bottom of my self, past aching worth grieving? When in the midst of my life, I’m forced to think of these things? Maybe this is just me trying to show where I go when I turn to ghost And the walls go from closing to caving in And what starts raging inside me Then i discovered I had to decide If i had the universe in my jaw Or if i felt the pulse of this world Maybe this is just me where I go when I learn to float In the middle of the night, When all is dark I can still see the light
9.
Said I’m fine but the moon’s in the distance And it’s creeping in again Said I’m fine but the moon’s in the distance And it’s creeping in again I’m sorry i just need to be alone Cause my heart is a battle zone And my soul is a catacomb And in all of my efforts of letting it go My body sends shock waves to my muscles and bones So my hands still hold And my hands are still cold Said I’m fine but the moon’s in the distance And it’s creeping in again I’m sorry I didnt mean to yell I can see how it seems I’m not doing that well But believe me when I say I made it through hell Just give me my time it’s the easiest way to help Honestly I’m just tryna be a better self I got keys to this locked room I open the door but I’m still blocked in Knees weak on the concrete But we all seem to be longing So what would my calls mean if they aren’t answered? Nothing, we mean nothing But I’m fine with the moon in the distance That’s creeping in again

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released September 25, 2020

✰All tracks by Stephen Alexander
✰Cover art by Arthur Hunking
✰"Longing" features production/sampling by 13 Necklace

---100% of proceeds donated to Die Jim Crow---

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